Monster

yanking awkwardly at my heel

a snag

a nagging pulse 

the dry memory of a folded year

cautiously i anticipate silence

as i unfold into the dream 

walking 

talking

lost with no name

hiding

i close down receptors

shut out light

dissolve into darkness

adrenaline courses through my veins

my heart is flung from its cage

and into my mouth

to scared to speak

the monster is within

it knows where to find my secrets

it devours everything it can

in hungry pursuit to be fed

every dimension of me is torn 

ripped 

ravaged

running towards 

some silent shore

scattered earth

beneath my feet

now i am born wise

piece by piece i am retrieved

soldered 

healed

soothed by advancing years

a deep rooted wisdom that holds my fractured heart 

with tenderness

respect

speaking truth

owning fear

the parts of that unfolded dream

return

and i welcome each one home